Confused

These few days, I started to confuse. I cannot differentiate dreams and real life. I am confused!!! Which is happens in real life, which is just a dream... I really need help. Help me to differentiate....

Is this a symptom of psychiatric problem? I am so scared... I cannot control my emotion these few months and always controlled by my emotion. I am helpless....

Australia

Suddenly, I miss Australia so much!
Suddenly, I regret to make the decision to come back!

Australia, what is so nice in Australia? What make me miss Australia? I don't know... Friends? Maybe... Or is something that I cannot let go?

No matter how, the decision already made! I should not regret! I should start my new life here... No matter how much I miss Australia, how much i miss people in Australia, life is still life here, I still have to survive here.

Read Huang's blog just now, my tears flow down by it's own. I can imagine how stress she is, how lonely she is... God, please give her some energy, let her be strong. I miss her so much!!! If I can, I really hope that I am there, spending the time with her. Laugh and cry together with her.

Over-spent

Sunway Pyramid, Midvalley and Aeon Bukit Tinggi! These are the 3 places that I went for the past few days. Continuosly... And, my purse is crying now... if my dad knows the total amount of money i spent these 3 days, i think is his turn to cry too...

Can you imagine I spent out a month salary for a pre-reg pharmacist in 3 days? OMG, that's a huge amount. People work 30 days to get that amount of money and yet i spent it in 3 days. That's why people said girls will spend alot in shopping when they are not in a good mood. I think it is true (at least is true for me), I will buy lots of unnecessary stuffs when I am in a bad mood.

I have to stop!! Stop buying, stop shopping and also stop bad mood! Possible? We will wait and see...

Rain will share my tears

Doesn't matter whom you are with
Doesn't matter where you are going
Don't you know I'm still waiting here for you
And pray for you

In the sunny days, sun will light your day
In the windy days, wind will lead your way
I have to say, you're my treasure moments
Never gonna walk away

In the rainy days, rains will share my tears
In the stormy days, storms will steal my pain
Just go your way and leave things all behind
Spread your wings and fly away

I'm pretending you’re mine
And wishing you'll be fine
The moments we share never die
You make a difference to my life
And let me realize
The feeling I've got deep inside

Placement

Started my final placement last week at Sri Kota Specialist Medical Centre, Klang. It is a private hospital and there is only ONE pharmacist in the pharmacy department. Thus, the pharmacist is super busy! He seldom have time to talk to me, to teach me, to supervise me... I could say this is not a good place for placement though the pharmacist is very nice, very friendly. Suddenly missing my Australia's placement so much! Missing my preceptor, Khiem & all the pharmacy assistants there. They really taught me lots of things.


This is the table where I did my sleeping, day dreaming and reading the prescription during my placement. Haha.. Can you see the big stack of prescription on the table? That is the 4th stack of presciption that i read after a week of my placement.Really hope that the pharmacist will allocate other things for me to do for the next few days. I am really sick of doctor's writing especially the Dr. L.


Hoping time will pass faster, then I can complete my placement faster, get my letter of completion faster and graduate on time! I have to complete the workbook as soon as possible. That's a big task! Still remember last placement, I used 7 weeks to complete my placement workbook but now I do not have so much time. I have to send my workbook to Adelaide, to Geoff March as soon as possible. Give me energy~~~

Real life vs Drama

Drama is always edited from the real life, am i right? When facing some problems in our life, drama will be our reference? Went out with SHua, SHui and JC just now. JC gave an idea that I should go back and watch few dramas, then I will know what i should do next. Haha.. Feel this idea not bad!

Things happen out of our control. Actually, I can't do anything for that, but I wish I can prevent something from happening. As time past, I heard more bad things about her. Yet, he still not awake. If my mum is here, all these will not happen and I will be enjoying my "princess" life now. Missing my "princess" life so much!

Stop dreaming.... Dreaming will not help. I should continue with my real life, my current "weed" life. Must be strong in order to "WIN"!

Bye 2007 & Welcome 2008

Deleted all my posts for 2007, hoping all the unhappy memories will be deleted from my mind too. Too childish?

Don't feel like giving a summary of 2007 coz i don't think there are memories that worth to remember except the friendship i got! Special thanks to those who always stay at my side and always give me support!!

2008's Ke Nee will be a new Ke Nee? Who knows? But life started to be new.. After 4 weeks placement, I will be graduate officially. Looking forward to that day.